A
soft breeze blew over the hills and through the quiet little town,
rushing by a young boy walking briskly out of his house and into the
meadow. The boy sat down upon a small stone wall, brushed his bare
feet against the dew resting on the green grass, and gazed out into
the sky, waiting for the sunrise, just as he did every morning; but
this morning, something different happened.
He was about seven years
old and wore a light brown tunic and sometimes sandals, which he
didn’t like to wear. He had deep brown eyes and the most
incredible smile; but he wasn’t smiling now. His mouth hung open
in wonder as he watched another young boy herding a flock of sheep
his way. The shepherd boy was about eight.
“Good morning,” said
the shepherd boy.
“Good morning,” said
the younger one. The younger boy began to ask many questions about
sheep and shepherding and about the town where this young boy was
from as he stroked the wool of a young lamb that had climbed up into
his arms. The shepherd boy answered matter-of-factly, feeling
important to know so many things another did not know.
“And your parents?”
asked the younger boy.
“I don’t have any,”
said the young shepherd, “I live with a foster father and his
wife,” he said.
“Oh,” said the
younger boy. They both paused for a moment. Then the older boy’s
expression changed dramatically.
“Would you like to
come with us?” he said, “My foster father and I are gathering
sheep to take up to the mountains for grazing and we’re leaving
today. You’d love it!”
The younger boy’s eye
widened and that wonderful smile rose on his face. “I will ask,”
he said, eagerly. He hugged the lamb, kissed it on the forehead, and
then set it down gently and ran off all excited.
He arrived home just as
his mother was making breakfast. She was kneading dough by the
window with her back towards him and he washed his hands noisily in
the wash basin without her asking, since he knew she liked him clean.
He then crept up behind her, nestled his head under her arm, and
hugged her.
“Whatchya’ doing
Mommy?” he said, with a very innocent voice, “Can I help you?”
She smiled and kissed his forehead, blowing off the flour from his
hair that he had already managed to get dusted with.
In no time the boy had
bundled up all his things and taken care of a few extra chores around
the house and the workshop, before listening to his mother tell him
many things that by all means he was never to do and what he should
do in case of every bad thing possible happening. The boy was
patient and too happy not to be, and he listened to his mother and
then gave her a big kiss and hug; and after she gave him three of
both, he said goodbye to his father and hugged his mother one last
time, and he was off.
He ran across the
meadow, looking back now and again to wave to his mom (who was waving
the whole time and being held by her husband). The boy couldn’t
help but feel a bit sorry for her since he knew it would be hard for
her. He began to miss her too, but was overjoyed at the thought of
this first great adventure he would have away from home.
It
began as a very wonderful first day. The young boy hit it off well
with the shepherd from the start, as he had done with his adopted son
that morning, and he felt what his father had said about the shepherd
was very true: that he was a very good man indeed.
They
walked a while with the sheep following behind, slowing climbing
upwards, then heading into a small valley, then up a bigger hill than
before, and another and another. The boy and his young shepherd
friend had fun running in between the sheep and lambs and riding them
from time to time until they knocked them off. The shepherd dogs
were very friendly to the boy, as were their puppies who licked his
face excitedly when he held them. Even more than all of that, the
young boy liked walking with and talking to the tall shepherd and his
son most of all.
“Why
do they follow you?” asked the little boy.
“My
sheep hear my voice,” he said, “I know them, and they follow me.”
He put his hand on his son’s head. “Just as I know my son and
he knows me,” he said, both of them smiling, “I would lay down my
life for him.”
“They
do not follow the voice of strangers,” said the younger shepherd.
The
young boy’s face was still full of questions. “But what about
the other sheep that belong to the people in the town that you are
grazing?” he asked.
“These
also I must lead, it is my duty,” said the shepherd, “And they
will learn to hear my voice, and there will be one flock, one
shepherd.”
They
continued in this way for some time, until the shepherd saw that they
were heading into a dark forest down below. He gripped his staff and
looked kindly at the boys below him.
“Did
you know that King David was a shepherd once?” he asked.
“Oh
yes!” said the little boy, smiling.
“And
he tore lions and bears apart with his bare hands!” said the
shepherd boy, roaring like a warrior and waving his small staff in
the air.
“Yes,”
said his father, catching the staff in midair, “And did you know
that he wrote songs and sang them while he kept his sheep.”
The
young boy smiled and nodded.
The
shepherd’s eyes fixed again at the gloom down below. “Would you
like to hear one?” he asked.
The
boy nodded again.
“Very
well,” said the shepherd, “This one is my favorite.”
And
he began:
“The
Lord is my shepherd;
There is nothing I shall want.
He guides me to green pastures;
Beside restful waters he leads me;
He refreshes my soul.
You walk with me on the right path
For your name’s sake.
Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil for you are at my side;
Your rod and your staff give me comfort and courage…”
All through the dark
woods the shepherd recited these songs, and by the time he was done,
they had already passed through the shadows and into the sun, where
they let the herd graze by a cool stream that ran down from the
mountains and made the land around it greener than anything the boy
had ever seen before.
Just
then there was a rustling in the trees beside the water upstream and
the shepherd boy stood up and pointed, but before he could say
anything, his father raised his finger to his lips, signaling him to
be silent. Out from the bushes stepped a beautiful light brown deer.
It had long thin antlers on its head, brown spots on its back and a
soft bright white tail which stood on end as it surveyed its
onlookers. It caught the eyes of the young boy who gazed in wonder
for he had never seen an animal so beautiful before. The deer put
its head down and began to drink, feeling safe though near strangers,
and the little boy heard the shepherd whisper,
“Like a deer that
longs for running streams,
My soul longs for you my God.
When will I see the
face of God?
Bring me to your holy
mountain.”
And when the deer had
finished drinking, it looked again at the littlest boy, who smiled
back, and then the deer turned back into the thicket, and was gone.
They
stayed at the river for some time, allowing the flock to drink and
rest, while they did the same. The little boy was helping an older
sheep find a good place to drink when he fell into the water and
bobbed up with a surprised gasp. The shepherd dove into the river in
a flash and quickly carried the boy to the shore. The boy shivered
and shook off while the shepherd wrapped a heavy cloak around him and
started a fire. The boy looked up at him.
“Thank you,” he
said. The shepherd smiled back.
“Father,” asked the
shepherd boy, who was helping his dad feed the fire, “When are we
meeting up with the rest of the flock?”
“The rest of the
flock?” asked the little boy through his chattering teeth.
“That’s right,”
said the shepherd boy, “Father’s got a hired hand bringing in
more from the towns on the other side of the forest and we meet up in
the middle before we go up to the mountains. So when are we meetin’
him Dad?”
“Don’t worry son, we
should meet him tonight before sundown,” he said, “Then we will
set up camp and be off to the mountains tomorrow morning.”
It wasn’t long before
the boy was dry, or at least said he was ready since he was even more
eager to go on to see the flock they had spoken about. Already, they
had nearly seventy sheep, goats, and lambs in all and from what his
friend had told him, there would be well over a hundred altogether
before sundown.
As they reached the rise
of what the shepherd said should be the last hill that day, the
shepherd’s eyes widened and he froze suddenly, looking down into
the valley below in horror.
“Stay here!” he said
sternly, and he ran down the steep hillside and vanished into the
thicket below. Both of the boys stood silent as they stared down
past the bushes. There upon the open field were the sheep, bleating
loudly, swirling around in a frantic white blob with what must have
been twenty grey dots charging at them from all sides. Wolves!
Several of the sheep had been picked out of the herd and were running
in every direction. There was no sign of the man who the shepherd
had hired from what they could see.
“Dad needs help!
Let’s go!” shouted the shepherd boy excitedly, swinging his staff
in front of him.
“No,” said the
smaller boy, “Remember what he said.”
But the shepherd boy
didn’t want to remember. He charged down into the thicket and the
younger boy ran after him, yelling at him to stop.
The shepherd boy reached
an opening in the brush and raised his staff, ready to charge.
Thump! All of a sudden he was on the ground: his young friend had
tackled him from behind.
“What are you doing?”
whispered the shepherd boy in an annoyed tone of voice.
“Trying to save your
life!” whispered the younger boy.
They both lay motionless
on the ground and turned their heads towards the action. The sheep
were frantically running every which way while the shepherd tried to
herd them into a cave a few yards away, while fighting off the whole
pack of wolves. He swung strong and with precision – striking them
one by one across the muzzle, knocking teeth out and sending them
away bleeding. One of them jumped at him from behind and the
shepherd turned just in time and drew a knife from his belt, slashing
the beast across the eyes. It staggered away yelping. Another came
at him from the front: it was huge and it lunged at him with all
fangs barred, but the shepherd caught its throat with his blade and
ripped out its gullet. The wolf fell to the ground, dead. Suddenly
there was a long howl and the boys saw a large black wolf, twice as
big as all the rest with large white fangs and piercing white eyes.
It stepped out onto the edge of the field and howled again, calling
off the attack, for now. The wolves scampered into the forest and
disappeared into the shadows.
The shepherd lowered his
staff, wiped the sweat from his brow and the blood from his knife,
and breathed a sigh of relief. The sheep were safe in the cave. He
walked over to another staff that was lying on the ground, a few feet
away from where the herd had been minutes before, and knelt down,
putting his head into his hands. The boys watched and listened
intently and heard him say sadly,
“He didn’t even try;
he didn’t even try.”
They crept up the hill
out of the thicket and reached the herd well before the shepherd
returned. His son said nothing about what he had done and the
younger boy didn’t either. The shepherd didn’t say much himself,
just that they were going to move the herd to a safer place before
nightfall.
They counted the sheep.
Nine had fallen in the attack, as far as dead bodies went, though no
one knew how many had been dragged off by the wolf pack. That made
one hundred in all alive, exactly.
They led the herd out
and the shepherd was silent all the way to the campsite. His son and
the boy he placed within the herd to protect themselves and keep
watch on all sides. Toward sundown they reached a tall cliff which
stuck out abruptly from the meadow below. There were hoof prints
here and charcoal and rocks from a fire lit long ago.
“We stop here,” said
the shepherd, “Son, show him how to fence them and count them as
they enter.” The shepherd stuck his staff in the ground and
returned carrying firewood. He lit a blaze and began to cook some
food from one of the satchels. His foster son motioned to the young
boy.
“Follow me,” he
said. He led him to a bush near the forest and rolled out two great
big bundles of sticks with rope and metal wire all around it. “This
is the fence. We gotta’ roll it out and use the rock as the back
wall. I’ll show ya.’” The young shepherd proceeded to roll
one of the bundles out against the rock and then unravel it. He
pointed to the other bundle and the younger boy dragged it to the
other side and did the same. Then they each hoisted up their sticks
and pounded the stakes into the ground.
“But there’s a gap
in the middle,” said the boy to his young shepherd friend, “Where
is the gate?” The shepherd boy’s mouth opened to explain.
“I am the gate for the
sheep,” came a voice from the fire. They turned towards the
shepherd who was roasting dinner. “I sleep in the opening to
protect the flock and to prevent them from wandering into danger.
The fire keeps me safe, but they will be safe in there and so will
you.”
The shepherd boy chimed
in excitedly, “Except when there are thieves and robbers!” He
talked so quickly he was spitting everywhere. “They don’t go
through the gate but climb up elsewhere and there was one last year
but the sheep were making all this noise and so Daddy crept up behind
him and took him out in a fist fight and you shoulda’ seen it, it
was awesome!”
“That’s enough son,”
said the shepherd, “Why don’t you start counting the flock now.”
“Yes father,” he
said, turning to his young friend again excitedly, “Oh, but you
should’ve seen it really…”
“Son.”
“Yes, father. I’m
going.”
And so they counted up
the sheep. By this time night has fallen and the moon was out. It
was a full moon and it illumined the whole meadow which had cooled
down considerably. The warmth from the fire made up for the cold and
then some, however. The boys started the counting by holding out the
staff a few inches from the ground across the gate hole. One by one
the sheep, lambs, and goats all stepped over the stick and the boys
counted them. If one of them couldn’t step over for some reason,
said the shepherd boy, that meant he had a lame hoof or something and
they would pull whatever thorn or barb that had stuck itself into its
foot out. This they did more than once, since it had been a long
walk that day, through many thorn bushes.
They took turns holding
the stick and counting, the other nibbling on some of father’s food
he had made for them, and they were very hungry. While the younger
boy held the staff, the shepherd’s son talked to his father.
“Father,” he said.
“Yes son.”
“I wonder how many
stars there are in the sky.”
“Only God knows that,”
replied the shepherd. The little boy smirked but neither of them saw
him.
“Suppose someday we’re
gonna’ know it too?” asked the shepherd boy. The shepherd looked
deep into the heavens.
“Perhaps,” he said,
“When the Messiah comes and redeems us.” The fire glowed
brighter for a moment and its reflection lingered in the little boy’s
eyes, but the others weren’t looking. The little boy was still
counting.
“Isn’t it Moses who
is coming back? He was a shepherd. Or is it Elijah?” The fire
crackled. “And what’d you suppose he’s going to do, Father?”
The shepherd was about to respond when his voice stopped. He stood
up quick holding his staff, signaled them to remain silent, and
listened.
“HowOOOOOOooooo!”
“Wolves. They’ve
followed us,” he said, “Well there’s no danger unless…”
They all turned towards the little boy who was watching the last of
the flock step into the pen.
“How many?” asked
the shepherd. The boy’s eyes widened in fear.
“Ninety-nine,” he
said, “One is missing.”
The shepherd ran to his
sack and pulled out a very long knife and fastened it hastily to his
belt.
“Stay here,” he said
very sternly, “Stay inside the pen, behind the fire. Nothing will
hurt you there.” He flung a large brown cape around his shoulders.
“I will be back soon. Do not be afraid,” he said; and taking a
burning faggot from the fire as a torch, he grabbed his staff and
disappeared into the night.
Both of the boys sat
wide-eyed and trembling, their mouths open. They were silent for a
while until the younger boy looked at the expression on his shepherd
friend’s face.
“No,” he said,
“You’re not going out there. We’re staying here like your dad
said.”
“Ah come on,” said
the shepherd boy, “We won’t get hurt. It’ll be fun.”
“No.”
“Please?”
“No. If you love your
father you would obey his commands,” said the small boy.
“Getting righteous on
me,” said the other, “He’ll need help – this time for sure.
I’m going.” Before the little boy could tackle his friend, the
shepherd boy had grabbed his cloak and staff and was gone.
Meanwhile, the shepherd
was flying through the woods, streaming through the darkness with his
torch and listening for a sound of his lost sheep. Another howl from
a wolf not too far off startled him. He paused only for a moment and
ran on.
He was heading deeper
into the forest. The full moon’s light rested on the tree-tops
above; below, in the thickness, there was only darkness. He held the
torch up and glanced at the brush below. And then he saw it: broken
branches and wool! He followed the trail marks until he reached a
clearing. The moon lit up the sky vibrantly and the meadow before
him was blue and ended abruptly. For there, not ten feet ahead of
him was a sudden drop-off of about two hundred feet into the valley
below; and somewhere, down there, he heard his lost sheep crying out.
The little boy was still
shaking as he drove the last stick into the ground.
“That will do it,”
he said. He had taken a few flaming branches from the fire and
placed them in the entrance of the pen, but he was scared. Many
thoughts raced through his mind at once. He had to get back to his
friend.
“You’ll be safe in
there,” he said to the sheep now behind the fiery gate he had made
for them. He whispered softly to himself and stopped shaking,
“Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will
fear no evil...” Then he grabbed another branch from the fire and
ran into the darkness to try and save his friend.
The shepherd crept up
over the edge of the cliff and looked down the precipice. It was a
steep drop to the bottom, but about a quarter of the way down, he saw
a jagged rock sticking out and his lost sheep was lying there.
“How did you manage
to…?” But a wolf howling in the background interrupted his
thought.
“Have to get down
somehow,” he said. His stuck his staff and torch in the ground and
took off his cloak. The sheep bleated as it watched its master lower
himself over the edge and cautiously climb down. His slipped once,
but caught himself on a narrow ledge. Sweat was pouring down his
face.
Not far off the
shepherd’s son was walking through the woods, carefully tracing his
father’s steps. He had forgotten to take a torch in his haste and
now he was suffering from his poor decision. He shook violently as a
wolf howled in the distance. The distance. “They are far away.”
He walked on, but he heard rustling in the brush close by, and he
froze.
“Gotcha!” The
younger boy jumped at him from behind and again tackled him to the
ground. He could see his friend’s startled and angry face from the
light of his torch.
“Stop it! What are
you trying to do, give me a heart attack?” he said.
“No,” said the
younger boy, “I came to save you.”
“Well stop saving me!”
replied the shepherd boy. A tear appeared on the cheek of the little
boy and rolled down the side, but the shepherd boy didn’t see it.
He grabbed the torch from the smaller boy and ran off into the
darkness.
“Just a few more
feet,” grunted the shepherd. He was almost there and had caught
himself once more from falling. His leg was bleeding now. His eased
himself down, closer and closer, and when he was close enough, he
jumped and landed squarely on the rock. He took a deep breath and
wiped his brow, raised the sheep onto his shoulders, and tied its
legs together around his neck. “Hold on little one,” he said,
“You’ll be all right now.” He usually broke a leg of a lost
sheep so that it wouldn’t run again but depend on him, but this
time he would wait until he got back to the fire: he couldn’t risk
the wolves hearing the bleating noise of the sheep now.
The climb up was easier
as far as footing went, but the extra weight strained his already
tired limbs. He heaved with all his might and pulled himself slowly
up the precipice, his breath moving heavily with every step. He
would never give up. At last, he reached the ledge and dragged
himself into the meadow again, wiping his face, recloaking himself,
and collecting his staff and torch. He took one last look down into
the valley, looked up into the sky, and whispered a prayer of thanks;
then he headed back into the forest.
He hadn’t gone far
before he heard the wolves again, this time much closer than before.
He had been following his own trail back to the camp. It wouldn’t
be long now before he’d be there.
He came to a clearing,
one he recognized passing through on the way. The moon shown
brightly on the grass there, and there was even snow that had not yet
melted from the winter, since they were so far up in the hills.
Something told him to stop. Perhaps it was the eerie silence of the
woods, the fact that he didn’t hear the wolf yelps at all anymore;
perhaps it was the dark moving shapes he could make out running back
and forth in the trees around him; or perhaps it was the bright white
eyes he saw emerging from the wood, from his path ahead.
They all came at him at
once. The first to jump at him was a white wolf from his right side.
He swung his staff and knocked it to the ground. The next pounced
at him from the left, a quick grey wolf, and he pummeled it in the
head as well. Two more charged from the front while another jumped
at him from behind, biting his cape, looking at the sheep tied on his
shoulders. The shepherd spun, dodging the first in front and
catching the second with his torch; it ran away on fire. In a flash
he pulled out his knife and stabbed the third wolf behind him in the
chest, sending it to the ground. The pack regrouped and circled
around him, hissing and barking and showing their white and yellow
fangs. He looked back with fierce strength: they were no match for
him. Suddenly his expression changed.
He looked up at a rock,
jutting out from the wall that encircled part of the clearing. It
was his son, carrying a torch; and the other boy ran up from behind
and held him back.
The shepherd looked at
the wolves in terror and breathed heavily through his nostrils. The
wind: it blew hard through his hair and passed the wolves, up to his
son. The wind was going towards them: the wolves hadn’t smelled
the boys yet.
The large black wolf
stepped forward under the rock where his son stood and starred
menacingly at the desperate man. The shepherd knew what he had to
do. He untied the legs of the sheep and lowered it into his arms.
Looking up at his son, he stared deep into his eyes.
Deep
in the woods, the shepherd was running with all his might: over
fallen trees, through thorn bushes, under the thick canopy of leaves,
which hid the sky, which he knew he might never see again. The sheep
was screaming in his arms and the wolves were biting at his heels.
Faster!
He
had to get them far enough away, then he could leave the sheep and
run back to his son and the boy, somehow. He heard howling and
furious crashing through the brush all around him, except straight
ahead, so he sprinted forward. It was pitch black.
All
of a sudden the howling stopped and the noise of running feet was
limited to his own. No time to look back. His sheep was still
crying out. “Just a little farther, then I can set you down and
get back to my son.” He didn’t see the large black wolf watching
him from the blackness; he didn’t see the ominous snarl it had on
its face: he couldn’t see anything, because of the thickness;
that’s why he didn’t see the cliff.
It
was a hill covered with tall trees, not like the open ledge from
which he had saved the sheep in the moonlight. One side fell
straight down fifty to a hundred feet. He landed on his leg. Crack!
Both legs broke and their bones came out of his flesh. He stumbled
to stand up but fell back down in agony. The sheep was still in his
arms and began to bleat and moan for the last time. The shepherd
crawled into a clearing under the moonlight. There was snow there.
He knelt up and raised his head to the sky. Blood spattered from his
lips.
“Out
of the depths, I cry to you, O Lord…” he whimpered and caved
over, “Lord, hear my voice.” All around him he heard low
growling, and soft feet stepping forward, breaking twigs. He looked
up and saw the great black wolf step forward and stand triumphantly
on a raw rock pedestal, looking down on him. It sneered at him and
then growled and barked, and then it lunged at him from above; and
the rest of them ran in and began to tear him limb from limb.
Morning
broke with a foggy white haze that covered the sky as one enormous
smothering cloud. Light hovered over the cloud and illumined the
cold, frozen forest below. Two boys were walking through the woods,
one carrying a burnt out torch and a staff, the other walking softly
behind. They had spent the night hiding in a cave nearby after they
had followed the terrible screaming noises of the shepherd father and
of the sheep until they heard them no more. The shepherd boy was
trembling and biting his lip.
They
walked to the edge of a high hill, covered in tall trees. They were
still weary of wolves, though they were sure not to move from their
hiding place until the last sounds of them had long passed. The
little boy saw it first and reached out and grabbed his friend’s
arm. The shepherd boy gasped, dropped his sticks and ran down the
hillside.
There
upon the white snow lay the remains of the sheep: a twisted mess of
wool, blood, and bones scattered across the clearing; but further on
lay the carcass of his father. The shepherd boy walked passed the
animal bones and stood motionless looking down upon his foster
father’s corpse. The younger boy walked silently behind him, his
eyes and mouth wide open. The shepherd boy breathed a deep sigh,
dropped his head in his hands, and falling to his knees, he wept
bitterly.
The
little boy stood there silent. His eyes were tearing too and the
wind rushed around them both. He looked down at his young friend and
slowly raised his hand from his side and over the dead body. Then he
paused and lowered it again, walked over to his friend, and rested
his hand on his friend’s shoulder while the little shepherd boy
sobbed away.
It
was quiet now. Most of the people had gone away and only the little
boy, his mother, and his foster father waited by the tomb watching
them roll the stone in front. What was left of the shepherd boy’s
foster father was wrapped inside with the spices. His father’s
wife stood far away. The shepherd boy had been standing closest to
the tomb during the whole ceremony and now he rested his head upon
the rock that sealed it shut; and his friend’s mother could see him
whimpering. The other woman just watched coldly, so the little boy’s
mother walked over to the shepherd boy, knelt beside him, and held
him in her arms tightly. She closed her eyes and whispered softly in
his ear while he cried on her shoulder. She was breathing heavily.
When she opened her eyes she saw her own son standing behind the
shepherd boy, staring at her with a very strange look she had never
seen before, and she stared back, wondering.
The
shepherd’s wife came forward and unfeelingly took the hand of the
shepherd boy and led him away. The other woman stayed there kneeling
on one knee, looking straight into her son’s eyes as if he was
trying to tell her something and she was trying to understand. But
he didn’t say anything, just embraced her. And she kept all of
this in her heart.
…………………......
Dust
rose from the pavement outside, and the sun beat down upon the temple
floor, reflecting off the marble and glittering through the mob of
people milling about inside. There had been quite a commotion over a
man born blind being healed on the Sabbath and that commotion had not
entirely died down. Several leading scribes and Pharisees were
encircling a man who stood calmly in the center. They were like
wolves snapping at him, and the people swarming round behind them
were like sheep without a shepherd. A tear caught in his eye, and
his heart was moved with pity for them.
That little boy, who was now a full grown man, raised his hand and stood up on a pedestal for all to see; and everyone was silent. He gazed out over the crowd, breathed deeply, and said,
“I
am the Good Shepherd.”
Brought tears to my eyes just like the first time I read it. -- Matt
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ReplyDeleteMoving and humbling.....nicely done!
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